DEAR BLOG...!

I know that I am not coming that very regularly, like I am coming..., but am not posting much.., even though I have alot on my mind these days...,
still not sharing...!
cumin and leaving some crap material in drafts...,
jumbled ideas, confused words..., flawy things.., things not worth penning down...,
and then there you are, continuously telling me that you are fed up of them and Me........!

well there are reasons other than "MERA DIL NAHI KAR RAHA THA...",
u know the moody part of me..., :grin
ok, lemme give some examples...,
lyk there is alot of load shedding at ma place, I cant come on the times I want to,
I am forced to come only at the times when I am damn tired, and am fed up of all the things happening around me...!
U know what, I am loosing my that reputation of all the time smiley smiley girl...,
coz I m tired enough, even for smiling....!
and you know me, I cant force the things out of me, when I am not feeling of giving them out,
and then smile is more of a special case..., with that its damn hard...!

THE summer past by......,

sharing about this summer,
I was very near to nature this time....,
and enjoyed plenty of it...!

many a rain and not missed....
this summer it usually rained at night, between 2-4:30 almost

a time when most of the people are busy sleeping...,
but there used to be ''I'' enjoying the rain...., into ma thought, soaking ma self...., into ma thoughts, getting wet......., into ma thoughts, enjoying the hilarious weather...., and enjoying ma thoughts :grin
welll i felt so free, as if every bind on my body was breaking one by one with a ''clutch'' sound...,
[so well mixed with the sound of rain falling over.]

And all those times when i sat on the wall of ma chhat, controlling the imaginary reins of wind, driving ma imaginary bike on a speed of 110 km /hr,
feeling as young as a seven year old,
talking to the moon,
telling the stars long tales,
free of all the cares of the world,
living the moments with ma spirit light and free.........!



AND YOU KNOW THE BEST PART.....?
while enjoying those late night rains and moments I always use to feel, that look I am the only one enjoying it.. there is no one I can see, who is awake that late and enjoying the bliss of nature the way I am...,
Dunno but the thought gave me pleasure, I the only blessed soul .. MAYBE THE SELFISH PART OF ME...!

WORDS... my magic world...!

I,ve been friends with books since i got able to read the first word.
Have ALWAYS felt that when I open a book, or lay my eyes on a written piece of work...
words start talking to me....,


Have YOU ever felt so,
Don't you think that they have some metaphysical sense attached to them,
[ Har lafz ki apni aik mahiat hoti he...! ]
That is they depict of what they actually are...!
they show what they are used to, talk about..
they are a real depiction of the emotion they contain..!
THEY SPEAK OF THEMSELVES...!



when i read the word ''ghussa'' I find in it,s ''ghain'' alll the world,s anger.
when i read ''Khwahish'', I find in its ''hish'' the exact sketching of some longing, something missed out, something you yearn for.

DO,NT YOU.........?

Hazrat e
FAIZ
AHMAD
FAIZ

ANOKHA LADLA.....

anokha ladlaaaa...,
khelan ko mange chand re
kesi anokhi baat re

[ well, Wishes are ''wishes'' .... what if not Granted... or to be more precise ''Grant able''...!
It never stops you from wishing... ATLEAST...! ]

I am Exhausted...!

just feel so...!

The greatest tragedies are always comic....!
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I laugh alot...!

Uss k dil par bhi...............

Listened to this ghazal of Nasir kazmi yesterday
still in its trance.......,

Uss k dil par bhi kari ishq mai guzri hogi
naam jisne bhi muhabat ka saza rakha he

[yeah that z so, when u build up a relation, swirl it in the bonds of love,
'u start making high hopes and expecting things from that .......
Humans are humans not god, they are bound by fate..., every thing doesn't ends in the way you want it to...! ]

patharon aaj mere sar pe baraste kion ho...
patharn aaaj...

ahh there z something in it ...uhh..!







AND I STILL FEEL IT WOULD NEVER RAIN...!

...............

i feel as it would never rain again or anymore.....!







i want it to rain ...
i so very want it to.....!

. A REQUEST

Dear blog!
On the very request of a friend of mine...
recently criticized by the author of the post........,
i dare to share,
that never point out mistakes...........,
coz next is you.......!
:grin

.......... ahhh a sunday...

from tomorrow our college is reopening, and yeah, academy too.!
Don not let me tell you that ITS hectic....!
:grin

and dunno I am afraid of it
6 long hours in college uhhhhhhhhhh...!
and two others in academy
and then that pathetic travelling in the local buses..!
uhhh,
just wish that i come back alive tomorrow....! :)
and not to mention.... come back with a bundle of tests to learn, homework to do.....!

It,s not fair.......!
so much work...!

.......................

Basically a very normal kind of day,
fair share of things..
joking around,
fighting,
crying
Ahhh all of it!


Sometimes i think that i fight! i am the one with the problems!
but maybe every body hav got their fair share of problems tooo.....!
:grin.....

Tu ne Deewana bnaya to mai deewana bana..............!

...
I dont like the way world is
so i want to be different
but wen i dont lyk them
neither would they,
and if they dont lyk me
they can go to hell..!

Documentary Details.....

-Well times back...
there I saw a documentary, talkin something about that-time president.....

It included some sort of survey,
the interviewees were mostly the extreme, polar parts of society....
THE ELITES anD THE POVERTY-STRICKEN.........
but I had my reservations with that..!

If u go asking people who don,t have things to eat, to wear, to diz AND to dat....!
[jo log roti ,kapra, makaan, basic necessaties k chakar mai itni buri trh jakre huay hen,
unki concern musharaf ya zardari nhi... aik acha president he... kon?
wo jo ate ki qeemat kam kara de, wo jiski wajah unk bachon ko do waqt ki roti mayyasur ho.... jare ki sardi mai tan dhanpne ko orhni ho pehnawe k taur....!]

Or if on the other side you go askin ppl who are THE ELITESSSSS...
jo beaches pe aik fun party kar rahe hen sharab k jaam thaame!
:P
jinhen na mulk ki parwa na mazhab ki tok..!
jinko na koi farq parta he, aur na koi wabastgi he iss mulk ki tabahi ya khushhali se


unka kia he jab chahen khatt lenge out of the country...!
beroone mulk accounts Zindabad!

are bhei! poochna he to unnnse poocho jo raye rakhne ki position mai to hen
warna raye k izhar ki azaadi ki baat karte hen,
raye rakhne ki to azaadi di hoti pehle..!

kher wat i was sayin that ask the middle classias...!
they are the ones who re getting the direct blows by the drastic change in political scenarios!

NOTE:-
the above all is written by keeeping general majority formulae in mind...
and after All we do believe in exceptions....
It does,nt take you to be an Elite to be insensitive,
or a poor-stricken wrench to be so engrossed in Your money matters to be ignorant with everything happening around....!


PEACE.....

AN INASSURED KID...!

I am so new over here...
and maybe it,ll take some time for me to be comfortable and a more of wat I am.......!

that z to say with time i,ll get natural.....!